Its Over Now

When the dust finally settles and you get to choose what’s next. I’m choosing to accept my wrongs, defend my rights, and improve myself. It truly hurts to walk away from something you have known for so long, your comfortable spot, your safety net, the one thing/place/or person you knew would always be there. You have to go through the feelings though, as much as you don’t want to and as much as you try to avoid it, there will be a day where it’s time to feel instead of flee. Fleeing from the fear of letting go, moving forward, acceptance, and acknowledgement. That’s where you have to wear your big girl undies ladies, and sit in your sh*t I like to say. I sit in my sh*t daily, gazing at the ceiling or on my phone and then my mind is wandering off. Having flashbacks and sudden emotions start to arise. I think to myself, you have really did it this time or its a burst of tears; tears of joy and tears of sorrow but I don’t resist I put myself right back in the moment. The moment where I may have made one of the biggest mistakes of my life or the moment where I have accomplished one of the goals I felt was never possible at some point in my life. Whatever it is for you, next time embrace it, feel it, and breathe again because its over now.